Ever.

• Abarat by Clive Barker
• The Thief of Always by Clive Barker
• The Sight by David Clement Davies
• Watership Down by Richard Adams
• The Golden Compass (and the rest of the Darkmatter trilogy) by Philip Pullman
• The Heretic Queen by Michelle Moran
• A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett
• The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett
• Tiger Moon by Antonia Michaelis
• The Dark Reflections trilogy by Kai Meyer
• The Redwall series by Brian Jacques

that is all.

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And I just come off as really annoying and obsessive after a while. 

I really haven’t. I think guys are cute or whatever but that’s all. (most of the guys I have thought were cute were complete assholes anyway)

I hate to say it but in all honesty, book/anime/movie characters have raised my expectations so high, I don’t think I’d ever be happy. I feel bad about it, but it’s true.

So that’s why I’ve never actively ‘pursued’ anyone. And I feel I’d be happier that way anyhow. 

And I also cannot stand the idea of being kissed or anything. I can’t. It grosses me out to no end. Call me prudish, but yeah. It’s true. 

I cannot handle them. 

Especially when they’re like, squeaky mewing dlfgkjdfg ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I just die everytime ;A; So cute.

;~;

I do. I can’t say sorry enough to all of you, or thank you enough.

Thanks for putting up with my shit.

It’s very kind of you, but I feel terrible that I act up and am so emotionally volatile. It only helps for so long, I guess. I have to figure out how to handle shit myself, because not everyone is going to do that for me.

I’m glad that you’re kind enough to do it. I just wish you didn’t have to.

Even if it’s pointless to do so or impossible. I just want to.

So when I say hate something, chances are I don’t really have that bad of a reaction to it. 

But there are a small handful of things that really do make me gut-wrenchingly ill because of how much I hate them. Those things make me shake and cry and get incredibly tense and nauseous. And feel as such for a good while.